Wednesday, April 7, 2010

I Can Be a Big Loser too!

Pretty fierce right? Just what I need! After hearing a few of my cyber pals from my May Mommies group rave about her 30 Day Shred DVD, I have decided to give it a go myself. This following an upsetting doctors appointment last Friday.

As my family and friends know, I am a fat fat fatty fat...hell, anyone seeing me walk down the street would know that simple fact. I can say that because 1. its true and 2. I'm doing something about it. I don't say it in a negative, putting down myself kind of way, just using it as another descriptive word like short or brunette. What they also know though is that I've got high blood pressure and have been taking meds to control it for a long long time. As my appointment Friday however, I learned that my cholesterol and glucose are also up. Nothing serious, just barely borderline but still not a place I want to be. I cried. I cried in the car after leaving the office and on the phone with my husband and again on the phone with my mom. I cried because I was so angry at myself. I've become numb to the HBP, like its not a big deal when..HELLO it is a huge deal. This was a huge kick in the ass. I DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE. LOSE WEIGHT, GET HEALTHY OR SUFFER AND DIE. I refuse to become diabetic, I refuse to add another condition that needs medication and I refuse to turn 30 as fat as I've been through my 20's. Things are changing and they are changing for the better.

I've been doing WW for a few months now and am down 16lb. Woot woot! Except, I know in my heart it should have been closer to 30 by now but I've piddled around here and there, fudged my points here and there and just plain threw in the towel a few times. Not anymore. NOT ANYMORE! I want more kids and I want to look good knocked up dammit!

So, starting tomorrow (because Luca was a butt and wouldn't nap this afternoon which kept Stella up crying and is a whole other post in itself) I am starting Jillian Michaels 3o day shred. I am keeping a calendar on the way to mark off the days I've done the DVD, to keep me accountable so I can't slack off or say I forgot. I see my doctor again in two weeks and would love to have 5lb off by then. She is redoing my blood work in 3 months and I want those numbers down!!!!

Here's to getting my ass handed to me by Jillian!

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